Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold, my life just hasn't been the same

....Oh baby no....

When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go I just- broke -down.

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice, 'cause the feelin’ that I feel within no other man would ever make me feel so right . It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night, but I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me and I miss the way you hold me tight…

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch….

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much.

I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny….

For you I'd cross the world for you…..

I'd do anything.

That's right baby,

I'm goin' crazy.

I need to be your lady,

I've been thinking lately,

That you and me, yes we can make it .

Just ride with me, and roll with me,

I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel-from the moment that I met you it's been so- damn-real, my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak, can't believe I feel so weak.

Tell me that you really needmeandyouwantmeandyoumissmeandyoulovemeandthatI’myourlady,

I'll be around waiting for you, put it down be the woman for you.

I'm falling so deep for you, crazy over you I'm calling, callin' out to you

What am I gonna do? It's true no frontin' It's you ain't no other, I can no longer go on without you

I'll just-break-down.

Done.

Over.

Bye.

*NoTe tO bOys* Play with her hair. Talk to her in movie theatres. Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her. Hold her hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her. Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL. Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops. Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her laugh. Write poems about her. Walk with her, even if its just around the block. Throw pebbles at her window at night. SURPRISE HER. Do things that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you right on the face. BE SPONTANEOUS.. When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her. Give her back rubs. Play football with her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her even if its just to say hi. Call her back if she calls you. Jump on the bed with her.  Whisper in her ear. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her mad, then KISS her. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all night. Leave her little unexpected notes.. on the car, or on her door, saying how much she means to you. Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the *stars*. Make up nicknames for each other. Show up at her work or apartment unexpectedly. Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand. Teach her guitar. Lend her your cds. Make her cds of songs that remind you of her. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip. Go on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long. Listen to her favorite songs. When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything.  Buy her ice cream. Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Make her a romantic dinner for special days. Remember dates.. even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary. Kiss her in the rain. Kiss her when she least expects it. When yOufall in love with her, TELL HER!!!   ps- i got that from the bestest person in the whole wide world my ashley!! shes just o! so cute!! and her mommys lasagna so yummy!! and aanons choco chip milkshakes are delish too!! much love! <3- keB

At home....bored....on a Sunday.  I actually sorta wish I had to work today.  Seriously.  Matt's at work, but he's upset with me a lil' anyway.  I see where he's coming from though.....I gave him a lil' lie about something b/c I was thinking that he would flip out about the lil' thing....and I was right.  Actually...I don't know if he's mad about what actually happened, or about the fact that I made a lie up to cover for it completely.  Either way....I had to tell him. Or else he was going to believe something that DIDN'T happen, that he was told did, by someone who was just trying to fuck up our relationship for some dumb-fuck reason.  So it was either letting him believe the horrible lie, or telling him the truth, which I think hurt him a lil' anyway.....I'm such a horrible girlfriend. Why is it so hard to just tell him the truth straight up? Oh yeah...b/c he'll get mad at me for the truth, too.  I think I'll just not talk to anyone anymore and just go to work and when school starts I'll go to school and then I'll come straight home.  Then I won't get caught up in something that he could potentially get mad at me for.  That's right....I'm permenantly grounding myself. 

keB

So It's my Mom's big 53rd Birthday today.....I know, she looks like 43 .  I took the day off so I could spend time with her, but now here it is almost 11 and I'm not even dressed yet!  Oh well...at least I don't have to go into Target at all today.

So we're trying to get along.  Thursday night he made loose plans with me to go see a movie.  Friday night we ended up going to Outback (which we had to take to go or else we'd be late for our movie!) and then we went and saw Monster-In-Law, so I could see my JLO!  Then we went home and ate our Outback, and just actually enjoyed being around eachother for once.  I think we went to sleep at like, 1:30 ? 

Then Saturday I had to work 11-630, but I stopped by to see Ashley after work to make sure she was ok(she had some kinda muscle spaz and couldn't really walk)...was called out to work...so since I just love her so much, I stopped by to make sure everything was all good-n-gravy.  Well, on my break Best Buy called to tell me that Matt's CD player for his car was fixed (it went out like a month ago so we had to bring it to Best Buy to find out the problem and since I bought it for him, my name was on the receipt, so they called me to tell me it was fixed) So I called him at work to tell him that and then I asked what he was doing tonight and he said he didn't know, so I told him about how I was going to stop by and see Ash, but my first priority always is to try and do something with him and he said "I don't care, if you want to go see Ashley for a little while, then I'll just find something else to do until then and I'll see you home around 9".  I got home at like, 9:05 and he got home at like 9:10.  COMMUNICATION IS KEY IN A RELATIONSHIP! Maybe things will get better now that we are actually learning to communicate better and tell eachother our plans or make plans with eachother rather than just assuming what is going to happen. 

Anyway...so now i have to go and get a last-minute gift card to Belk (I know, such a procrastinator), a card from me and Matt, and a card from Clementine.  Plus I still need to actually take my baby out, get dressed, and try to figure out a good place to eat tonight since all my mom mentioned were restaurants that she's been to 50 hundred times!

<3-keB